02.12.01 @ 10:26 PM
[ ramblings of the unknown ]
currently feeling 
subdued
i need sleep. i have permanent eye bags. yet i still feel compelled to type. why? who knows...
i wish i knew how to drive. then i don't have to depend on others. all my friends are on their full license, with the exception of julz whos still on her p's. me? my learners expired awhile ago. i don't know why i haven't pushed myself to just go and get lessons. it's not that hard.
jenny if you read this- YOU SUCK! i'm going to go watch harry potter without you. you're only getting your wisdom teeth pulled out, not having a heart transplant.
sometimes i wonder how my life would be if i told one little white lie. okay it would have been a big whooping lie. at that point in my life. would they treat me any differently? would i get the freedom i crave? all i can do now is wonder. my questions will never be answered.
i wish i was 5 and in kindergarden again. where my biggest problems was which icy pole flavour i was going to have that day. when i would crawl out of bed after a goodnights sleep at 6:30am just to watch the smurfs and astroboy.
i have a whole load of washing to fold and iron. way behind in my chores. lazy i know. but work drains me out. i'm going to be working every day this week. i need someone to take my saturday shift so i can go to homebake. i really want to go that i'm considering calling in sick if theres no other solution. will 28 days play without scott? *sighs* i shouldn't complain. there are people out there who have it so much worse.
sorry. i'm babbling i know. i will stop now.
this is where i say i've had enough, no one should ever feel the way i feel...
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